Is This All The Truth?

I am sitting here in my apartment again and it is 11:00p.m. I am tired but not ready to go to bed. What a fuckin week. Very, very busy. I am very excited cause my girlfriend comes back home tomorrow and I will get to see her and have lots of sex. I have been thinking about moving again, I want to move because I really don’t think I fit in here.I used to live in laurel and I liked it and I wonder why I moved. I think about it to this day, but I made a decision and now I live closer to D.C and I can’t complain because it is closer to work and the neighborhood isn’t bad at all. But I don’t know. I want to move but then I don’t. I will think about it for the next two weeks and then I will make a decision. Anyway, back to my girlfriend. She is an incredible woman. I am talking to her right now and I am glad to hear her voice. I honestly at this point in my life if I did not have her I would know what to do. She is my light that has guided me through gauntlet of death. I just hope that she knows that I love her more then anything in the world, and I hope she feels the same way. I honestly thought that after the fuckin cunt lips, that I would never love again, and I said that in my previous blogs, but this one, I don’t k now. At first I wasn’t sure, like I wasn’t sure whether I truly loved her, I said it a bunch when we first met, and that is me, I fall very quickly for someone, and a lot of the times I have to stop myself and actually think about what I am doing and saying and think about the situation. But I knew and know, from the first time we hung out till the present and also the future, that I love her. But I do promise this one little detail that I refuse to leave out, after this one, if I and she do not work out, I am done, over, and gone. Before the sun rises for the next day. I mean there are many things to say about her, but I don’t want to revel too much information so that certain people that read this blog will know who she is. But I honestly can say that she puts into this relationship just as much as me, which makes me happy, and we don’t really fight, we talk about shit like human beings, and oh yeah she has OCD like me!!!!!!!!! But it has started out fast and my only fear is that it will end quickly. And that is for her to decide, I do want to go slow and progress over the months, but I haven’t yet reveled some of my faults, like one fault I have is that if I do not impress her everyday or if I don’t buy her something or do something special everyday that I will lose her love. I know that I don’t need to do all of that to keep her, but it is always in the back of my head. And I am not going to lie I am scared about some of the future. I don’t know what is going to happen but I am with my attitude of fuck it and I will deal with whatever comes. Well I think that is enough for tonight. Peace motherfuckers!!!

Yet Another Fun Weekend

Well where to start for this weekend. Me and Randy had yet another fun weekend. Well it started off on Friday where all we did was hang out and went to see 40 year old virgin which was a good movie. I thought it was funny. Then we came back home, we had to get up early on Saturday and Randy went to bed. I stayed up all night playing halo 2. And this is an open challenge to any halo 2 players (actually want abes), if you think you are good I challenge you to a game of one on one. Just leave me a message on feedback and start to practice, because you are going to get your ass whipped. Anyway, so me and Randy left md around 5am. I had to go see a graduation and then from there we left for WV. We got to Huntington WV around 3pm and we had to kill some time so we had some drinks and then headed back to this warehouse that was hyamp.orgs place. Me and randy sat outside, made fun of people and then got in line. When we were in line we talked to some chicks that told us that a lot of good bands play there all the time. That is cool as shit cause we got really close to the bands, and you can’t do that anywhere else. So I will keep my eyes on the website for any other bands. Ok so, me and Randy got in and we pretty much hung out until silverstein, and Underoath. I found out that Underoath was headlining which I thought was cool but when we heard both bands, I thought Silverstien should have headlined. They fuckin rocked the house, except for all the fuckin Jesus lovers were waiting for Underoath and that no one really knew Silverstein's new songs except for about ten or fifteen people in the crowd. Me and Randy kept yelling between songs for Silverstein to play Already Dead. A good fuckin song. I know my boy Mike liked the song so I wanted them to play it in memory of my boy. They didn’t though and I was getting pissed as shit when Silverstein was up on stage because all the fuckin teeny boppers were in the way and when me and randy were moshing or trying to start a pit they were all scared, I fuckin wanted to gut half of them and I yelled at the faggot fuck in front of me, telling him to get the fuck out of the way because I push his shit in, he looked at me with his fuckin inbred eyes and I was like ohhh, sooo scary!!!! Anyways after Silverstein and Randy getting punched in the eye, and he wanted to kick the shit out of someone or something, we waited around for Underoath and when Underoath came open everyone was sooo fuckin happy for these guys. I didn’t think their set was as good as Silverstein. Don’t get me wrong I like Underoath a lot I just wasn’t too impressed with the faggot shit about god and all the fuckin faggots screaming like 98 degrees were on stage. So anyways, Underoath finished their set and all the inbreds wanted another song so Underoath gave it to them. While Underoath was playing some guy came up to me and said hey I am glad you are on my team and I was like huh, and then he showed me his Nazi swastikas and pentagrams and I was, uh no I am a skinhead but I am with you man, cause he was a big dude so if I need ed him for fighting, I could say some racist shit, like nigger and Jew and he would be like I Yeah!!! Anyways, after the concert me and Randy left for his parents house and stayed there Sunday, we were going to come back Sunday night but we got a flat tire. The fuckin tire was driven down to the inner linings in the tire. I think dumbfuck Randy needs to pay attention to his vehicle more closely. But it is a good thing that we didn’t drive back because if we did we would have died. But we stayed the night at his parents place and then woke up on Monday, got a new tire and drove back. Now we are back in MD safe, and we fuckin were being stupid the whole fuckin way. So too fuckin bad he left his camera at home or would have had some great picks. Fuckin dumbass Randy, fucking up the situation again. Anyway I will blog more later. Peace Niggas!!